One Year On. A mother's journey

 

I'm heavily pregnant, why won't you come out?

I'm desperate to hear your first scream and shout.

We're ready to be parents, come out and you'll see.

We're ready to meet our beautiful baby.

You're finally here, it doesn't feel real

All these emotions I'm starting to feel.

I've known you a moment, yet I'd die for you now

I feel I have known you forever somehow.

I'm exhausted, so tired, why won't you sleep?

Is your sole purpose in life to cause me to weep?

I'm a terrible mother, I have no clue what you need,

My go to solution is to feed, feed and feed!

My baby, you smiled. My heart could just melt.

Such a feeling of joy, I have never before felt.

You looked at me happily, such a pure look of joy,

That moment you saved me, my beautiful boy.

Daddy has a new job and he has to live away.

It is the best decision, yet I wish he could stay.

It's just the two of us now, during the week, you and I.

Until Friday of course, I can't wait, I won't lie.

You're finally sleeping, and eating too,

It was just about time (between me and you.)

Your Great Grandad passed, it's been a sad time,

Yet your laughter is a tonic that lessens the pain.

Buddy, you're sitting, you can roll over too.

You babble all day and love peek a boo.

You're a happy little boy, healthy and strong.

Surely we can't have gone too far wrong?

Ugh, spoke too soon, dude why won't you sleep?

You had it all sorted, the same time last week.

Do we have to do sleep training, do you have flu?

Buddy, what's happening? What do I do?

Thank heavens you're sleeping and eating well, phew!

You're crawling and reaching and playing well too.

You brighten each day with your beautiful smile,

I wish I could freeze frame our time for a while.

Buddy you're standing and attempting to cruise,

You often have falls and easily bruise.

You love the outdoors and you always love play!

Every evening I ask myself "Where went our day?"

Buddy we've started to have sensory fun

Edible chalk, paint and foam are all things we've done.

You love to be covered in messy play goo

We're mess making experts, such a fun thing to do.

Oh you are cheeky, you have a wicked laugh

Whether you're eating or playing or having a bath.

Every day is an adventure, there's fun to discover

My greatest achievement is being your mother.

This month your world opened, yes you are walking

All the time still, you are constantly talking.

Mama, Daddy, Ball, Nanny, Up, Down

Yeah, No and Hiyah, what a joyful sound.

Today is your birthday, a whole year of you!

What do you think Buddy, how did we do?

We haven't been perfect, but is anyone really?

All we can do is guide you, and love you most dearly.

Buddy, you are everything that is amazing and good

You're mischievous, independent, you'd do it all if you could.

You changed us my darling, I'm afraid it is true.

The best thing in our past and our future, is you.

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